By Pat Hastings Burns (written after attending the Sacred Feminine Awakening & Healing Maui Retreat).
As I shared in my last blog, I was led to attend the Sacred Feminine Awakening and Healing Retreat on Maui facilitated by Amrita Grace and Caroline Muir. Thank you for your prayers. It was very appreciated.
I have been given the KEYS to unlock the door of my heart to reclaim my life force energy and receive new life, freedom, passion, enlightenment, transformation, and healing. Because of my sexual abuse, I dissociated from my body and didn’t allow myself to receive pleasure. As women, our birthright is pleasure.
I believe the KEYS to my sexual healing are my WILLINGNESS, FAITH, COURAGE and a strong desire to heal deeply. Spirit had prepared me for this retreat that I needed and I was guided each step of the way. I am so grateful for my “YES” and that I didn’t let fear rob me as it had for many years. Instead, with the grace of God, I faced my fear head-on. Alleluia!
It is hard to put into words my experience, but I will try to capture it and share it with you. I have been on the healing/spiritual path for over 40 years and have had lots of therapy, groups, and retreats, but I have never experienced anything like this in all my years. I knew it was time to take my sexual power back as well as clear lifetimes of trauma.
My experience was profound, deep, sacred, holy, and powerful. There were women from the US, as well as from France, Peru, Argentina, Switzerland, Ireland, and Ecuador. The love and sisterhood that was created was extraordinary. We were women sharing and healing one another through our embodiment and through loving one another. Because we are all connected. what each of us does impacts all women.
Our leaders, Amrita Grace and Caroline Muir, created a loving, sacred, and safe container for all of us to open our hearts and heal trauma. We laughed, cried, played, swam, danced, and meditated together. I was surprised that several of the women had not been sexually abused, but were wounded and repressed from childhood and past relationships, both culturally and from their religions.
After attending the retreat and my sexual awakening and healing, something stirred inside of me and it felt like my soul was calling me to work with women and teach them about this sacred experience. I was truly following my heart.
After praying and meditating to discern if it was God’s will and talking to [my husband] Larry about it, I decided to apply for the 6-month teacher training program to become a “Certified Spiritual Sexual Educator.” I had just paid for the retreat and now I was considering putting out a big chunk of money again. GULP. I trusted the money would be provided if this was truly in alignment with God’s will. I know that stepping out in faith and following my heart before the money arrives is essential for my growth.
I felt that this was a call from Spirit, but I didn’t know if I would even be eligible for this training. When I called Amrita to discuss this, she was excited and said, “You are the perfect kind of woman that I want to attract into the program.” We both had chills as the tears were rolling down my cheeks.
I love surprises and synchronicity as well as how Spirit guides and provides for me. The same day I made the decision to move forward and say YES to the certification, I received a call from my son, Brian, telling me he had a buyer for my house in Providence that hadn’t even been put on the market yet. To make it even better, the buyer was going to pay cash. Oh, happy day!
God always provides when I step out in faith, listen to my heart, trust, and act. Receiving the news of an offer on my house on the same day I called Amrita to apply for the certification was a confirmation that I am aligned with God’s will for my life. I am very excited (and scared) about this opportunity to serve and support women, even though I was not looking for another career. I love the saying, “We make plans and God laughs.”
I truly believe that every woman would benefit from this sacred, holy experience. I have been awakened and given birth to my sexual myself.
If this blog has inspired you or helped you in any way, please leave a comment below.
Always with love, Pat Hastings Burns
“There is no greater gift you can give or receive than to honor your calling. It is why you were born. And how you become most truly alive.” Oprah Winfrey
Pat Hastings, MS, LCDP, is the author of the award-winning book Simply a Woman of Faith: How to Transform Your Life & Live in Spiritual Power. Pat is an internationally-recognized Inspirational Speaker, Workshop Leader, Retreat Leader, and Spiritual Life Coach.