Amrita’s Breast Cancer Story
(Image from June 2013): 8 weeks post-surgery with a 21″ hip-to-hip scar and reconstructed breasts using my belly tissue. I got a boob job and a tummy tuck!)
My breast cancer story is highly unusual… read on!
My closest friends have a hard time remembering I ever had breast cancer, because I never acted like a cancer patient. I was clear and decisive about my treatment and made an amazingly fast journey from diagnosis to cancer free… less than 3 months. I’ve never been healthier or happier than I am now.
Rewinding back now… the first couple decades of my adult life were ruled by sexual addiction resulting from childhood sexual abuse. When I bottomed out like all fortunate addicts do, I invested in well over a decade of therapy and deep, intensive personal work, including extensive sexual healing. I even wrote and published an award-winning book about that, called Reclaiming Aphrodite-The Journey to Sexual Wholeness.
By the time I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I had some amazing tools in my emotional toolbox. I was not afraid of death, I had no regrets about how I’d lived my life, and I KNEW exactly why I had manifested the dis-ease into my experience. On every level, I was totally prepared to deal with breast cancer.
Although prior to my diagnosis I had occasional fears about having breast cancer, when it came down to the reality of it, I was actually relieved. My husband and I looked at each other and laughed, in part because the doctor was so ridiculously discombobulated about delivering the news, and in part because we saw it as a clear sign that it was time to “change the channel” in our lives.
Perhaps you are asking yourself why I would be relieved; a natural question. I was relieved because I had gotten myself entrenched into what I thought was my soul’s calling, my life’s work, over the course of the prior decade. I was giving it 1000 percent and it was going nowhere and had never even come close to being successful or sustainable. But I stayed in it because I thought it was where I was supposed to be.
I was really stuck. In the 2 years prior to my diagnosis, I had focused specifically on unwinding whatever was keeping me from being successful, but I just couldn’t shift it. The breast cancer diagnosis was a signal that it was okay to finally just let it go, completely. And that was a huge relief. Breast cancer was a massive turning point for me and was leading me exactly where I needed to go.
I said earlier that I knew why I manifested breast cancer. In truth, the reasons are multi-layered and multi-faceted. The simple answer is that I believe that breast cancer is a mystery school that I was being called to attend and graduate from… a spiritual directive to advance me on my path.