Post-Mastectomy…. Burlesque?

When I want to feel empowered, I dance. Dance has carried me though times of greatest challenge and greatest joy. But I never dreamed I would be performing Burlesque on my 53rd birthday, 2-1/2 years post-mastectomy.

Being born the day before Halloween, most of my birthday parties have included costumes. The last time I had a party was when I turned 50, a few months before my breast cancer diagnosis. I didn’t have another party until this year (2015), and I was not planning a costume party. But a week before the party, Goddess whispered in my ear… “DANCE!” and it began to emerge. A roaring 20’s theme and a Moulin Rouge-style burlesque performance. “REALLY?” I asked… and the answer was Yes. Really.

I set up a dance studio in my garage. Grabbed the mirrored closet door and threw a rug down. Spent hours finding music. Went to the Halloween store for a few costume items. Chose a stage name: Ruby Pearl. Watched some YouTube instructional videos. And I dress-rehearsed all week.

Ruby arms halfI have a long history of bringing sacredness to dance. As a belly dancer for many years, I taught women of all ages, shapes, and sizes to wiggle and jiggle and love their bellies. My intention for this birthday performance was to embody beauty, sensuality, grace, and empowerment for the people (especially the women) who would be watching. To show them what’s possible. And it blew way past all my hopes and expectations.

What was so sacred about this dance for me was that I’ve been calling forth my own Shakti to be expressed in a more balanced way, instead of only within the container of my marriage. After spending many years recovering from sexual addiction, I had my Shakti wrapped up tight and saved only for my marriage. But there comes a time when I get to trust that I can bring my full life force expression to the world and that it will be appropriate and welcomed. That time is now.

The burlesque performance was a full-on Reclaiming Aphrodite experience. I had so much fun and the audience absolutely loved it. The women came up to me afterward feeling so empowered and inspired!

This year (2017) is much more sedate for me, birthday-wise, as I  prepared to leave for Costa Rica in just a few days to facilitate a Sacred Sexual Awakening and Healing Retreat for women with Caroline Muir. Little did I know what I was calling in with that burlesque performance! A move from Maui to North Carolina and the creation of The Sacred Feminine Mystery School!

I’ll be teaching one last time with Caroline (after Costa Rica) before she moves to Panama to semi-retire. That will be April 2018 in Maui. A true full-circle homecoming for both of us.

So tell me (in the comments)… what archetypes are you playing with this Halloween?

With so much love, respect, and joy, Ruby Pearl (Amrita Grace)

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13 Responses to Post-Mastectomy…. Burlesque?

  1. Amrita,
    Wow, what a story, what a marvelously healing story. It opens a door of healing others who’ve been through what you’ve through and who haven’t experienced the glory that you’re telling us about here. Sending you boatloads of energy and grace for that mission.

    The web URL I’ve given is for my travel blog. My business website is under reconstruction.

    Warm regards,

  2. Amrita Ma! Mahalo for sharing yourself so unabashedly with the world. You are a radiant light shining brightly… a true inspiration in myriad ways. I Love You sister!

    • Amrita says:

      Ahhhhh, to be witnessed and celebrated so that I might take this powerful empowerment to other women… thank you for all your support along the way. I Love You, Amulya!

  3. Donna G. says:

    Thank you for sharing…… a delightful and healing story. I always enjoy hearing and seeing how you are….. Beautiful I see!!
    Love always,
    Donna

  4. Shari Smith says:

    How can I shout out, PROUD, any louder? I hope this goes viral so that many women can rekindle their own beauty into their world. YOU are a beautiful reminder that we all can be whole. It takes digging deep, staying true to oneself & following a sacred path leading to Life, Liberty & the Pursuit of Happiness. “Let’s Dance”!

    XOXOXOX MOM

  5. You rock.
    Totally.
    Completely….

  6. Wow, what a brave and wonderful offering to your beloveds on your birthday, Amrita!
    Thank you on behalf of all women! Reminds me of somethign we will need to talk about when you visit……soon!

  7. Rochelle Coop says:

    What a shinning STAR, you are, Amrita!! What a gift to world! I am in so much AWE and wonder at your yummy delightful ways, stirred up with such consciousness and awareness! the dance was exhilarating, and the memory is trans-formative, forever an inspiration in my mind and heart!! THANK YOU!!

    • Amrita says:

      Rochelle, thank you so much for your beautiful comments! It was such a pleasure to have you as a witness to such a special contribution, and I hope to continue to inspire you are women everywhere! MUCH LOVE!

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